chuck em on

Sunday, July 17, 2005

grr i really hate this feeling..why cant i just have a happy life..wu you wu lu.

after reading yahting's tag bt mingswin..haha..funnie..cox i think last time i was like tt..keep logging on and off just to find someone..and then when i realised the specific time tt he always log online, i stopped logging on and off..i became smarter *ding* and logged on only at tt specific time..which is always like 9-11..but ever since i forgot bt him my log on time became 11-1 when my parents dun bother bt me...hahax..so there is no specific target to find when i log on now..sad..hahax.

hmmx sth happened on fri during pt..it is like for the 1st run..although the speed was fast..but i still cld manage..and i like encouraging pple..cox when i encourage other pple i feel encouraged as well...=)..yah and i dun really like how our pt works..as in it is not like how it worked when i was in netball..netball requires alot of team work..so u slow down to wait for others and encourage those stuggling to run at faster rate...well it helps..but now it is like we run at our own pace..and not everyone has the motivation to carry on..i think the way we are running is very selfish..it is like i dun care bt others..i need to catch up myself..TT kind of mentality..not good larh..ok anw tt's out of the point..the point is..after doing circuit we RAN again...and it was suppose to be a cool down run...not a piaing run...hmm...the way we run can really cause someone's life lah..well..cox a cool down run is suppose to let u cool down?? not to kill u..ok..so at 1st i was trying to run real hard..like how i did in the 1st run..and then i started feeling dizzy and out of oxygen..i felt like i was gona urm faint?? but i cont..cox i dun want to be a burden to the grp..yah..and then when i was turning the corner up the staircase..it all happened so fast..i blacked out..and collapsed forwards on the stairs..nv happened like tt b4..low bp prob again..now i cant really rem wat actually happened le..but i knew i was feeling rather giddy..thanx juli..u are a great fellow 1st aider...i luv u=) went to the toilet to weep for a while..urm jux some tears..but it's ok...i need it..when i got home i was contemplating if i shld tell my mum..decided not to..i will if it ever happens again.low bp sucks..my health sucks.

okok..so urm we stopped running..yah..but the thing is i guess everyone was rather relieved to have me fainting..cox the run cld stop...and everyone cld rest..

2dae we went for 1st aid course.surprisingly junhong and weeloon actually went for the course too...yupx..so we saw some articles...then got one gal blackout in sch and died the nxt day..hmmx.but she is overweight lah..so does not apply to me..but everyone started calling my name...as in "huiling....." *duh*..i luffed..i duno why on earth did i luff..it's not very funnie..but i guess it is natural instinct to luff? i duno...

i gave my 1st to a dummy 2dae..lame..hahax..had to do rescue breathing..and then had to like blow air into the dummy lor...geesh..1st aid theory is simple..but when real situation comes..i duno if i will panick..the 3rd degree burns were very scary..and all those deep wounds...hmmx..i hope it does not happen to anyone ard me..including myself..

dReaM |aHead| @ 11:22 AM